i don’t know what i’m doing. i don’t know what i’m doing. of course, i had to write that wacked story for my thesis. of course, my medium is web comics, requiring me to draw. ARGGHGHGHGHGH!! why did i even picture myself that i could draw jgfjkagfjkafjkagfjkagjkahgiowehtiowhgowhk
i don’t know what to do, what direction to take anymore. i just, i have these projected outcomes that comes out of my head, it’s great and all but when the time comes to do that, i just feel lost and disinterested..
now in my midterms. done with my community service and the only thing we have to do now is to pass the documentation.
right now, i’m feeling lazy AGAIN! i wonder if it’s PMS. ngrh. sometimes i curse my hormones. anyway, i passed my content eval for midterms but i didn’t pass the marketing collaterals.
i reeaaaaally feel lazy.. i watched ncis all dayyyyy gahhhhhh
been feeling lousy since last week. i feel awful when i get home after classes. been getting headaches and been feeling unsatisfied by what i’ve been doing
sometimes i feel lonely in college. like tonight for instance.
i think this week, i’ve seen how low i’ve been for the past years and it is come to this. THIS madness of a video. i look back and it is just carnage. life!
i had a terrible lunch, mainly because of my uncle who is reduced to staying at home and possibly has mental issues (this is serious), went on and on again on his poisonous tirade about me. and this is one of the days that i let it get to me. there is a burn in my heart because i’m angry and what he said is true.
and then i realized that what he is saying earlier also applies to himself. i am becoming like him.. this is bad.
the feeling of detachment happens whenever i’m in college. i just feel off and my heart is not in it. the thought that is always in my head is, ‘i’ll definitely do this and try this next term.’ but it never happens. i feel so lost.
(Source: kari-shma)
so ahh, this is my last chance to salvage my thesis and i’m running out of time and i should be freaking out but i’m still calm. wtf is going on..
